Most of all, I hated the invisible scars I carried from when I was raped. I was 15 years old, but it feels like the attack has replayed interminably ever since; what happened in a matter of minutes metastasizing throughout my life, my body, my spirit, my soul.
Bless you. I am so sorry you went through this — it sounds like PTSD is a part of your life now. May you have healing.