I spent 16 years as a hairdresser and while in that industry I worked for a mediceutical company teaching classes on hair loss and became quite interested in DHT and other hair loss-related issues. I completely understand the desperation people feel about their hair loss and how that leads to trying all kinds of remedies. I am saddened by your journey, but I thank you so much for sharing it. Medications can cure, heal, and destroy. I shared my Lyrica story here: https://medium.com/@fnfwriter/the-weekend-i-lost-my-mind-it-could-happen-to-you-f4cc6e7760b5
I hope you can find at least support by sharing your story. I empathize with you and applaud your honesty.